metacognition and wordplay

thinking about thinking..taking a step back.....so i went for a walk.... along capel street...... chinese people .....singing butchers... AGAIN?..yes...someone writing this?..hope so...reading it?..doubtful.. thinking it?...definitely.....is this bird shit talking?..... notice it because you are looking for it.....don't think so....you thought?...maybe.... coincidence? .........randomness?...incorrect..you made it meet your eye...nothing more.....more chinese people there than there...or there..or there.....you knew....you thought...you went....you see?......but he was singing......everyone in ireland does,.....in a foreign language...everyone in ireland does...thanks to the queen ....best not...pig was one thing..they hate the queen...they talk about it all the time.....in her language.....irony...lost on them.....too lazy to learn.....drop to pass...easier....nothing personal elizabeth...i wont forget...times have changed....not enough....memories are useless.... good ones make you sad...sad ones make you good....never again.......oh elizabeth you must have thought we were....revolting?.......... walked past a butchers.... solitary chinese man...where are your brothers in meat?....i didn't say this... understand?..wanted to...not normal....interrupting ..curiosity...not normal....you know curiosity?....of course...you know he killed the cat?........he sings happily...butcher not cat.... hacking dead flesh...best not to interrupt......dead cat and an asian butcher....maybe it wasn't curiosity.....maybe it was....is this a stereotype?.....yes....yours?...afraid so...where did you find it...someone gave it to me....that how it happened?.....some of it was mine....i swear...please dont..i didn't mean ......positive racism...wouldn't fight him....knows karate...probably...is that japanese?...difference between ram and lamb?.. pronunciation....chinese butcher....that's racist...just thought...didn't say...understand?...nod and smile....talk slowly.... who cares... everyone...words more important than thoughts.. beautiful hair. .....upside down bowls of liquorice.......singing...about meat...?...GUFFAW..dont know...foreign language...made me smile...the parallels....new ireland...old ireland..same...different.changes so stealthily....brazilians having a party.......friends...laughter...talk...didnt understand any of it...not invited....... never invited ...never go....tell yourself...didn't want to ...more..probably shit...tell yourself that..probably shit.not going.....didn't in old ireland..... wont in new....same really....always...no matter the language ... all is said..all is done.....time for old tricks...think about it.....party tricks?....balancing........ unaided.... on two feet whilst bumming a fag....GUFFAW....COUGH COUGH...smoker.....you see?...double meaning....doublethink... convince myself.....convince yourself....... all is fine...here....think fine is fine...no....yes...yes...that it will change....wont... has...without us....not invited....change it...i cant out here... change you....try to....think about it......think fine is fine......not bad...fine so