happy birthday+2

saw the masters work today.felt like applauding before it started.....how can he fill a stage with thoughts....can i?......i felt... giddy as a gumdrop...a gumdrop?..inanimate...not giddy...dead....dead metaphor....... consumption in large quantities can cause giddiness.....correction.....went and saw the masters work today felt like .....an idiot...wanted to clap before it started...did i understood this?... DO YOU?...people sniggered....intellectually......they laughed in all the right places but in the wrong way?...a shallow acknowledgement .....i laughed in the wrong places .......right way?..deep understanding...GUFFAW....i dont get it... i do ....you definitely do...... doublethink...the lies....mine..not yours...not this.... this is truth ..... confession...lies ....i get this....defenitely.... get this?......a new dog learning old tricks..stupid really.....GUFFAW...i think i heard...SILENCE...a joke?...GUFFAW.....SILENCE..need to concentrate...i get this..she gets it better than i do ....SNIGGER..and she is french...she grabs my hand...nicely....i love her.... already?...pathetic.....GUFFAW....palms wetted from intellectual strain...SNIGGER..... lust?.....no erection.....friend said something about masturbating in the morning...GUFFAW.....she is french and she gets it.... retract hand......concentrate......SNIGGER....missed it .....SHIT....SHHHH.....i want to laugh out loud.....whats stopping me...them?...who?...nobody ...i get it...then laugh...you are right...they are wrong......what if i`m wrong?...even if i am right .....more of them......you get it though?.... laugh out loud...they will think i am a fool...an ejit...dammit man,laugh...GUFFAW.......SILENCE......being clever can make you seem so foolish......foolishness makes me clever?..think clever....are clever....no way of knowing.......maybe ..........they think so....dont...well they do but they dont.....DO I? .......APPLAUSE ....i got it....did you?....,yes...we...me too....blue camel?...she is french she got it....she smokes beautifully........i definitely got it... so?...best not think about it....pint?...oui....french cocks look the same as irish cocks but they sound different....never thought about it.... LIE........doublethink......i dont need this....what about her....KISS...distraction.....i need to get it.....i have it......BONER......not that.SNIGGER....the bird shit is wearing off?...but its you...AGAIN?....dont you get it?.. your voice...never sounds like your own....i do,though....that is to say...i sound like this...GUFFAW.....like him?....i dont get it....but...i can make it......SILENCE...get it?